Sunday, September 26, 2010


September 21, Tuesday


When I think about this day, I think “walking and errands”.

I got a lot done today. I made stops to various offices and was able to check off my list of “to-dos”. I walked probably in total of four hours. My legs hurt.

Today I had Anthropology, English and The Irish Sociological Imagination class.

My Anthropology and Sociology classes were HUGE. I am talking like a few hundred people in each. This is totally different than Saint Mary’s. A lot of “Matured Students”, as my friend Taylor says, were in these classes. Matured Students, meaning older adults.
I was thinking to myself, “Wow, I am in a class with people of all backgrounds and ages. This is really neat.”

I met Paul, who works in the International office. Him and I were talking about the culture differences between Ireland and America. He is headed to America for a week. The Irish folks love to talk. They love to kick back and enjoy each other’s company. I found myself looking at my watch—I need to watch that. I am in Ireland now, not America. I mine as well through my watch away. I am adjusting to the slow pace of life.

Taylor, Megan and I went to Tesco’s, a big department store which carries just about everything—besides for fans. I was in desperate need for a fan, as was Taylor. The noise tends to carry, due to the lack of support of our walls. When we arrived at Tesco’s, we ran into Kara, who had just bought a T.V. She accidentally knocked down Quinny’s TV. (A gentleman from Australia who is apart of our group), and had to replace it. Poor thing. Things could be worse though.

Taylor found a Fan Heater last minute. We thought that it would do the desired trick. I needed a fan with a lot of noise, so that I would not hear the outside noise. Honestly, it is like a social gathering outside at like all hours of the night. The environment is different here—people enjoy hanging out along with a desire to drink pint after pint. Something that I am not used to, but then again this is a part of the culture here.

I noticed that a lot of the professors have made funny comments about the drinking here. One professor said, “You should spend as much money on books for my class, as you do on drinking.” Of course we was only trying to bring a sense of humor into the classroom. Professors here are most certainly aware of the “young adult” social life.

Tonight Annie, Bridgy, Cailin, Catherine, Sona, and I ate dinner at Rose’s apartment. Evelien made us tasty pasta. There was a yummy cheese spread with crackers as well. I tried goat cheese with garlic herbs for the first time. This type of cheese is certainly now one of my favorites. I love food, and since I did a lot of walking today, I figured that I could enjoy the cheese even more. I am enjoying this year with trying different types of foods.

We hung out for a while, and some drank wine. It was just nice to be together. I enjoyed being around my friends and I liked relaxing.

I am sleeping in Annie’s room tonight. We have a 9 A.M. class tomorrow—Philosophy. Yes, I love early classes…..



September 22, Wednesday

Annie and I woke up around 8:30 to get ready for our 9:00 Philosophy class. I am not necessarily a morning person but I have done my fair share of early mornings—plenty.

I really enjoyed the philosophy class. The “lecturer” as they call them here (Professors) was very excited about the class and what it had to offer. Whenever someone is positive and happy, it makes me want to learn more. My interest in the material is that much more special.

He wants to challenge us this semester to put out ideas into perspectives, to look more at strengths and weaknesses, and to view ourselves and the society in which we live. Most importantly, to commit to honesty.

I like the focus of this class and believe that this will be an interest of mine. I want to think in ways that I may have never thought before. I think that this is the purpose of my journey in Ireland—to see the world through different lenses, and to be challenged in my thoughts.

After class, I walked April over to South Campus, so that she knew where to register for classes. I then went back to my room, got ready for the day and ate an apple with peanut butter.

Part of the deal here is that the Saint Mary’s girls get a weekly stipend of 55 Euro. This typically covers costs for food and basic supplies. Not everyone will spend the 55 Euro for food alone. Some will buy the basic necessities and even alcohol with their stipend. It is all about particular interests. Budgeting can be tough, and I think that a part of this journey requires becoming more mature in spending habits and more aware of what is really a need versus a want. For me, budgeting teaches me how to simplify my life, so that I am not distracted by the desire to want and want.

Although I am used to grocery shopping and cooking dinner (I live with my dad), I believe that that experience here in terms of cooking, planning, preparing, and budgeting is something new for me. Especially preparing meals for over 10 people has been challenging. About 10 of us Saint Mary’s girls are on this cool system. We each take turns planning an evening’s dinner. This way, we are saving money, buying in bulk and we get to be together.

In my Anthropology class, we watched a movie, titled the Final Contact. The film amazed me because I was able to explore a different way of life that people live. When I say different—I mean really different. This is fascinating to me. God has created many different human beings, with so many unique areas of interest.

Annie, Bridgy and I went to Dunne’s, a local store in town. They sell everything here—besides for fans (which I needed the other day). Annie and I bought taco stuff. Bridgy bought ice cream and apple pie.

We cooked at Rose’s apartment. It was so fun to all be together again, for an evenings glory. We chatted, ate yummy food, and just hung out—it was that simple. We got a lot of laughs in as well—thanks to Bridgy’s very funny personality. Bridgy, we will never forget that you spent 2 Euro on ice cream. : )

After dinner, I came back and had the chance to skype with one of my best friends, back at school. Shelby and I lived in Queen’s Court together last year. A lot of people do not know what real friendship is—I do. She is a real friend to me. She would do anything for me, and she prays for me. I am glad to know her and cannot wait to explore many more ventures together. It has been hard for me to be away from her, but God keeps us together. We both know that.

I have been thinking a lot about friendship on this journey. I have observed a lot of people on this journey. I am truly grateful for those who I consider my dear friends. I am just blessed. Plain and simple. I may not be perfect, but they accept my weaknesses and help me to become the best person that I can possibly be. This is why I smile.

It has been hard to be away from those I love—very hard. God is good though. He knows how this time away will be of a greater mark. I just smile and keep strong.

Although most apartments here are co-ed, I share a unit with all girls. One girl is from China, and the other two are from Ireland. I have not had the chance to get to know them very well. A lot of students from Ireland go home on the weekend. The girl from China and I talk occasionally. Us four are on totally different schedules. I cannot wait to have the chance to talk with them more. I consider Rose and her three roommates to be that “family like community” for me.

I am in Liffey. The way that these apartments /dorms are designed is much different than America. I have my own single room, and then I share a kitchen and common area with my “flatmates” We each have a section in the fridge, where we store our purchased food.

I have learned some great language. I am catching myself sometimes changing the twist of my voice. A lot of the Irish folks say, “grand, brilliant” The word “Pissed” in Ireland means drunk. “Do you want a drip?” means would you like a drink?

Well, I am headed to Annie’s room to spend the night with her. I love sleep over’s. I love her. Her and I just met this summer, and she is someone that I know will always offer me the truth, and best of love.

Dear God, please allow me to have the mind- set of compassion. Please guide my heart, protect my soul and mold me into your greater design.

Until tomorrow, Godspeed.


September 23, Thursday

Usually, students here at NUI can get away with not attending lectures. (The notes are always online) I however believe that part of the experience of learning a different culture is to soak up a new appreciation for learning. I have been amazed by my anthropology and Irish Sociological Imagination course. I have found myself taking pages of hand-written notes—not surprising really, considering the fact that I do not want to miss any important piece of information. Yes, I am a perfectionist.

The classroom setting difference, compared to Saint Mary’s speaks highly of the different approach to learning. In my Irish Sociological Imagination course, the material and topics that are discussed are very interesting to me—this is my field and my focus, so I am that much more excited.

The international office here at NUI has not been necessarily the best organized, to say the least. Annie had a rough day, with the International office. Her patience was tested.

Annie, Rose, Sonali and I walked to Tesco, a local store in town. We do a lot o walking here in Ireland (which makes up for all of the carbs consumed). We all got what we needed and then we causally sprinted back in order to make it to the Roost by 5:59.  Today was Arthur Guinness’s Birthday. We made it to the Roost by 5:59 to get a free pint of Guinness. It was literally packed to the maximum in there. I barely had any room to breathe. I had two sips of my beer and then kindly handed the glass over to my friend Evelien, who agreed to finish it.

Annie and I went back to get ready for the evening—we were still in our sweaty clothes from the day. A shower and a more fancy look for the evening, were both calling my name.

Evelien and I walked over to the Roost together, as we would eventually meet up with Annie, Catherine, Bridgy, Cailin, Sonali, Rose and Caitlin. Evelien and I had a great talk on the way over.

The Roost was crowed (not surprising). It was a Thursday night, which is a popular evening out for many local college students. Evelien and I met some “interesting” gentlemen, who clearly had a glass or two. There were bands playing. Eventually the rest of the girls met up with us and we all spent some time dancing on the dance floor. I was wearing Steve Madden, high heels. Mind you, high heels are not recommended for a lot of movement and walking. What was I thinking? Well, my shoes did in fact look good with the black, laced dress that I had on. Maybe that convinced me enough.

I am always watching what I eat—our bodies are temples of God’s design. This trip though, I am not worrying so much about the food that I eat. For once in my life, I am healthy and do not get sick when I eat. Last year, I dealt with a handful of health issues. I believe that since I am doing a lot of walking, I can consume a few extra carbs. Sonali, Caitlin, Cailin, Catherine, Annie and I went to Mizzoni’s for pizza. The box said, “Probably the best pizza in the world.” Heck yes it was! I had a small, vegetarian pizza. It had corn on it!!! Yummy, yum.

We brought the pizza back and ate in Catherine’s room.

It was a fun evening. I love being around these girls. They are enjoyable, relaxed and are kind people. We travel on a journey, not knowing what to expect. I never expected to meet friends who have a loving heart for life. This Ireland journey is dependent upon one’s own individual walk and leading power. The vision of the journey is dependent on one’s own choices and desire. Many people walk a journey differently. I choose to walk this journey with open arms, love, acceptance, fearlessness, trust, determination and understanding. I am truly and humbly blessed. I am thankful and I praise God for this opportunity. It has been much more glorious then I could have ever imagined—and it just begun. That is the exciting thing!


September 24, Friday

Philosophy class—very confusing but I am really thinking beyond my known thoughts. The purpose of this class is to think, to think in a new way. It is a 9 am class; so many people come tired, drained and hungry for a cup of coffee. Some look anxiously at their clocks while others are glued to the lecturers interesting knowledge. I was somewhere in between.

In the afternoon, nine of us went to Dublin for the rest of the day. Making this trip was Sonali, Caitlin, Cailin, Catherine, Kara, Bridgy, Rose, Annie and I. We look a train nearby.

The city is absolutely beautiful. Praise God. I thought that I was in New York City. I mean, I am just amazed by how big, beautiful and great this city is. There is a lot of life, and happiness in the city. On the street corners I encountered homelessness, people selling fruits, the sound of musical instruments, and typical families. As I walked past people, I noticed the unique design of clothing, plastering through the crowds. I saw many different races and ethnic backgrounds. In that moment, I found myself embodied in a world of difference, yet beauty. I was walking alongside people who may be living a complete different life then myself. The heart of humanity rested upon the streets of Dublin. I felt like I belonged in the crowds. Despite the differences of look, beliefs, traditions, and foundations, we serve a common purpose. That purpose is to live in this life—to live in a life that has the craving potential for unity, knowledge, true understanding and requested vision.

 I may not understand half of the traditions or beliefs out there—how could I? I have lived in America by whole life. It is now time though, to stretch my comfort even further, and to rise above the common element. I want to understand all people. I want to appreciate their way of life. I think that just by simply walking down a street in the middle of a diverse city, I have a better understanding before I got on the train.

The girls and I walked around—we stopped in Penney’s, a popular store for women’s clothing. The affordable prices make it that much more appealing.

We walked through Trinity College, located in the heart of the city. There, the Book of Kell’s remains. We had the opportunity to walk through the library. I appreciated learning more about the college and the tradition behind it. The college buildings were beyond beautiful. The older look, ravished my mind—the design made it that much more beautiful.

For dinner, we hit up O’Neil’s pub. The food….amazing. I had a sandwich (build your own). I also had a bucket of fries, literally a bucket, and potato salad. The menu had many great options to choose from. A few of my friends had Shepherd’s pie, lamb, and burgers. The nine of us smashed our hungry bodies in a corner table. We were very satisfied when we ate. There is something special about eating together—which is something that we have done a lot of this trip.

Kara, a fun girl, with a spunky personality, was thrilled and rather excited that Starbucks existed in Ireland! A starbucks stop was a must—and so we stopped.

We had about 40 minutes to catch the train back home—if we wanted to get on the 9:16 train. Karen Chambers, my program coordinator told us, “Always remember the difference between an adventure and a crisis.”

Sonali and Catherine stayed back, to meet some friends at a local pub. The rest of us headed back. Thank goodness for maps and human GPS’s (Kara and Caitlin). The adventure of finding our way to the train station was not so much relaxed as it was nerve racking. We literally sprinted up and down streets, with sudden stops if we thought that we were going the wrong direction. Those millions of carbs that we consumed at dinner were starting to work off. That may have been one perk in our 40-minute sprint-type walk.

The walk was almost a crisis, as we got lost a few times. It was pitch dark. We were in the middle of a large city. Chances are, we are going to get lost. I was no help at all. I just followed the crowd, hoping that they were knowledgeable to read a map—I sure wasn’t.

We stopped to take a quick group picture on the bridge, overlooking the water. In the distance, you could see a Farris wheel, a boat and many blue lights. It looked like paradise. Is this real life?

We did in fact end up making the train. We barely made it though. The sprints and fast running made it possible. I was the “leader” of the group. I encouraged them to keep walking, and to keep up the good work. Picture me in a city—not really known to me, telling the girls to keep going. My fast walk-style was evident to many people, who strangely starred at me.

A good time in the city, serves as a powerful memory for life. I enjoyed this evening, and am thankful for this opportunity to see more of Ireland. There is so much out there. We just have to be willing to grab it.

Annie came over for a sleep over—I had a hard time falling asleep. I think I got 4 hours total. It happens.

September 25, Saturday

Today was a great day. When I say great, I mean great. Our whole group had a chance to bond and unite in a new way.

That is one great thing about group trips, they simply bring people together. Together, we cherish a newfound culture and piece of life that was once unfamiliar.

Our first stop was to Glendalough. St Kevin founded this early Christian monastic site in the 6th century. Set in a glaciated valley with two lakes, the monastic remains include a superb round tower, stone churches and decorated crosses. The Visitor Centre has an interesting exhibition and an audio-visual show.

I was astonished by what I saw. We first watched a short film on the history of Glendalough. Our tour guide was very motivating and excited about this place, which made me more excited. Although the tense in his voice, was a bite frightening—even though he was just super excited and pumped. He loved what he was going.

After the 30-minute tour, we had the chance to roam around. The group took countless pictures. It was evident that we were tourists. We look pictures of everything. Pictures capture that instant moment.

I enjoyed this site and tour because a lot of monks came to spend time in solitude. This is something that I feel called to do. In order for me to step away from the outside world, I feel that a place like this would be good for me. In order to fully discern and soak in my calling, I believe that I would be able to further carry the shield of God’s plan for my life.

Because this site used to be a religious pilgrimage, I was just thankful to be walking on the same path, that many have printed years ago. I felt God’s peace, radiance and lavishing grace, shedding through my spine. This place was magical.

For a moment, I actually thought that I died, and that I was in heaven. Why, because of the beauty that I witnessed with my own eyes. Our next stop was Powerscourt Gardens. When someone sees mountains, gardens, fields, bright green grass, waterfalls, and miles of landscape, how can they not believe in an awesome God? This place is by far, the most peaceful and beautiful place that we have visited. I kept asking myself, “Am I really experiencing this?” I honestly saw the face of God through His creations, through the peace that was in my heart, through the silence, through the voices of strangers and through the smiles on my friend’s hearts.

We had a great lunch there. I had spinach, pine nut and feta cheese quiche with three salad choices. I also had a rich, piece of cake. Overlooking the dining area was a beautiful garden, and the mountains remained in the distance.

This experience brought our group together. We all laughed together, took pictures together, and simply had a great time.

Both experiences taught us each something—and unlocked a special place in our hearts. Experiences like this not only shape a person, but further speak in a prominent volume to one’s capability to reach for the stars.

I have no words to describe how God has enriched my life through these experiences. He continues to teach me valuable tools about life. Life is an ongoing journey. A journey that only gets better, if we are serving Him.

What will these experiences today teach our group? I cannot speak for everyone else. But I am more than confident that hearts for transformed in greatness and excellence to know what is possible.

September 26, Sunday

Today was another group trip. We were in the bus for a long time today—some were more inpatient than others.

Our first stop was to the Clonmacnois. Clonmacnoise was founded in 545 by Ciaran of Clonmacnoise. Until the 9th century it had close associations with the kings of Connacht. The strategic location of the monastery helped it become a major centre of religion, learning, craftsmanship and trade by the 9th century and together with Clonard it was the most famous in Ireland, visited by scholars from all over Europe. From the ninth until the eleventh century it was allied with the kings of Mide. Many of the high kings of Tara and Connacht were buried here.

We stopped at a fancy hotel for lunch. I had fish, mash potatoes, rice, veggies and stuffing. It was like a Thanksgiving meal. I decided to be good, and rather than having a tasty treat, I chose fruit.

Our next stop was to Bru na Boinne. The Bru na Boinne interprets the Neolithic monuments of Newgrange, Knowth and Dowth. The extensive exhibition includes a full scale replica of the chamber of Newgrange as well as a full model of one of the smaller tombs at Knowth. All admission to Newgrange and Knowth is through the Visitor Centre, there is no direct access to these monuments.

The site covers 780 ha and contains around 40 passage graves, as well as other prehistoric sites and later features. The majority of the monuments are concentrated on the north side of the river. The most well-known sites within Brú na Bóinne are the impressive passage graves of Newgrange, Knowth and Dowth, all famous for their significant collections of megalithic art. Each stands on a ridge within the river bend and two of the tombs, Knowth and Newgrange, appear to contain stones re-used from an earlier monument at the site. There is no in situ evidence for earlier activity at the site, save for the spotfinds of flint tools left by Mesolithic hunters.
However, there is evidence that this site was visited repeatedly during the Bronze Age, Iron Age, and Medieval periods, as evidenced by the multiple Beaker, Roman, and Medieval artefacts that were found during O'Kelly's excavations from 1962 to 1975.
Numerous other enclosure and megalith sites have been identified within the river bend and have been given simple letter designations, such as the M Enclosures.

When we got back, a few of us went to mass, at a local church. I asked my grandmother and family up in heaven to intercede for me. I continue to hold on to strength. The priest was talking about how we are called to act out of love. This has been my goal on this journey. The group that I am traveling with comes from a very diverse background. I have to always ask God for a pure heart to keep loving and growing as a daughter of Him.

Tonight for dinner, I had pizza and salad. I was able to bond with one of my roommates. I enjoyed that time together. She is biology major and plans to hopefully get her masters someday. It was nice to just casually chat with her.

My friend Catherine’s 21st birthday is tomorrow. Tonight, some of us are headed to Sona’s room to celebrate. I am going to stop by and then come back to get some sleep. I need sleep.

Today I experienced amazing beauty—as I have a lot on this trip. The bright green grass, and the spark of the country fields, fills my heart with intense happiness. It is a different life—almost like living on a complete different planet. The beauty that I have been experiencing was once unknown to me. For that, I am truly thankful.

Classes are in action for tomorrow. But for right now, I am enjoying the quite touch of grace that is fuming in my room. I like time to myself. I can debrief and reflect on the beauty and precious moments of each day. I smile.

Monday, September 20, 2010


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September, Tuesday 14th:
I am sitting in the car with my dad, headed to O'Hare Airport. This will be the last time that I will see my dad for 3 months. He is coming to see me during my Christmas break.
Starting in high school, I became involved in a lot of activities, which helped both in my faith growth and in my service calling. These activities allowed me to explore my gifts and talents in great ways. Furthermore, these activities and many experiences that I have had in my life provided me with the ability to explore a part of myself. What was God calling me to do, and how would He use my gifts to help others? I have seen Him use me in wonderful ways. I have really appreciated the moments in my life where I have really stepped back from the busyness and loudness of the world, in order to reflect and hear the whisper of God.
I have learned a lot about myself through my life experiences. I have learned a lot about people because I have taken the time to listen to their stories. It is amazing to me how you begin to see new glimpses of life through interaction. This world is filled with graceful beauty, newfound wisdom and surrendering compassion.
Because I have had my fair share of busyness and worry, I am taking this Ireland journey as an opportunity to let go and simply appreciate. For once in my life I am leaving all of my writing projects behind, and all of the activities behind. (Just for this year, so that I can really reflect on growing as a person).
This journey will be a chance to really allow God to fill my heart with His desired callings for my life. I think that I need this time for bigger self-discovery. My greatest hope and prayer is to take these 9 months to study, travel, and appreciate the culture and people around me.
Studying--being in a classroom with other Irish students will be an experience of its own. I cannot even begin to imagine how insightful and profound this experience will be. The education system is structured differently compared to education in America.
I truly believe that one cannot be fully educated until they step into another culture. The heart of full understanding is captured through moments like this. I am hungry to see how other students think. I am thirsty to see how teachers teach.
When it comes to traveling, I am up for any venture. The power of Gods beauty is embodied in the most precious scenery or by looking at some of the oldest sites grounded on this earth. I often think, "Wow, God has created this all." --and I have not even seen close to half of his design. I even think about how God uses all of these different aspects and ways of life in order to appreciate Him more fully.
Traveling provides me with a sense of peace and a happiness that fills a certain emptiness. 
I just want to really understand people. I want to learn more about the heart and desire of the human soul. I crave to listen to the stories of the many people that I will meet on this journey. Learning about their life styles, their goals, and their dreams and challenges will hopefully make me appreciate mine even more.
I hope to come back to America and bring the experiences that I had, to share with others.
Often, something holds people back from seeing the world. Sometimes it can be the fear of unfamiliarity; while other times it simply can be because of the lack of resources. 
I want my experience--my journey of finding God in a whole new light, to be shared with others. My greatest ordained goal is to provide people with the most heart-felt and detailed glimpse of this experience. 
Although I think I know what God has laid on my heart in the future, I may come back to America with a total and completely different calling. 
Living in the moment is hard for people to do. Why? Because we are raised to be busy, to strive with passions for the future and with this comes a lot of worry.
I can testify to this. I know that it is hard to live in the moment; especially with the life that I have.
Although it is hard, I believe that if we reach for the moment; if we make that effort; we can then become the best versions of ourselves. Unknown possibilities begin to transpire. Problems are turned into ways to strive. Worry is turned into love. 
Living in the moment will be my biggest challenge on this trip--on this journey. It is about the adventure, about the moments that will make this trip truly special.
Going with uncertainty is a great portion of this journey--so is unfamiliarity. But these two things make us strong, make us more alive. I do not know what to expect, but I will attempt all things with greatness. And so, the venture begins. I will travel with a deep consciousness of God.

September, Wednesday 15th:

Letting go means letting go of all the worries, my future potential ordained goals (for a short while). Letting go means letting go of the pain that I mat still have inside from past situations.

Appreciating means focusing my mind and heart of what is around me in that moment—in that precise moment. Throwing my whole self into the horizon of another. In order to fully understand, I must listen. Not listening with my ears, but with my heart.

The check in at the airport went okay. It is never exactly the most fun thing to do in the world, but yet again, it is the adventure.

Through traveling on Aer Lingus, there certain requirements for luggage. I did not have a scale at home to weigh my luggage, so I just winged it—hoping for the best. On of my pieces of luggage ended up being overweight, so the worse case scenario was paying an extra fee.

My friend Rose and I actually got to O’Hare at the same time. Rose is a fun girl and a great friend of mine. Our rather different personalities bring the best out of our friendship. Rose is also a writer and her imagination is one of a kind—its creativity speaks brightly of who she is. Her gifts and talents shine through her attitude about life and in the depths of her character.

It was hard for me to say goodbye to my best friend in the world—my daddy. Our huge reassured that we would still be together—just with some distance.

I think that for most girls going, leaving the ones that they love is a rather hard thing to do. How many actually step out of their comfort zone and journey to a place that is unfamiliar to them? After living in a place that you call home for so long, how can it be that easy? It’s not. It is the future experience that shapes and forms a certain aspect of who you are, and who you are called to become.

One of the challenges in America has been trying to figure out how exactly to step away from the distractions. I crave silence, removal of all materialism and true peace. In my life, seeking silence has been done through retreating from the outside world—whether sitting in nature, sitting in my silent room or just stopping in prayer. My mind is transformed and I feel a newfound peace—a peace that I often feel, only when I step back. The peace that I yearn for is a stronger peace within myself. Not holding back on the fears, the loneliness or any type of potential rejection, betrayal and of being unloved; often comes when we know how to find peace within ourselves. I think that I am almost there, but still have not yet finished the race.

A distraction such as materialism is hard, especially when you live in a culture, a society that desires such. Our minds have to be renewed with the reminder that we are to be seeking God at all times. Whenever I feel the forces of the dark world upon me, I have to turn to prayer. I have to simplify myself even more. It is hard—terribly hard, especially when the corrupted world is right in your face. The real question is, how do you live in this world, but not be of this world?

People do not take time to listen. I believe that if they did, their purpose in life would be filled in a greater way.

On the plane, I have encountered all types of people. I have witnessed many different styles of clothing and mannerisms. I sat back and watched the flight attendants interact with the passengers. The way they moved their eyes, and the communication that they have is beyond fascinating.

I met Deacon Michael, who is from Ireland. He is probably one of the kindest people that I have met. I could feel God’s grace radiating through his warm spirit and his gentle compassion for people, never ceased to amaze me. I was able to talk to him and he was thrilled that I have a heart for youth ministry. He shared with me the need for faithful young leaders in the Catholic Church.

It is amazing how God brings these amazing people into my life.

I spent the plane ride chatting with a few other strangers—now great people that I know. I ate a delicious chicken dinner. Rose, my traveling buddy and seat partner and I watched Remember Me. It was nice to be relaxed and to soak up into a good movie.

Being up in the sky, Rose and I experienced some beautiful sunsets. The face of God was alive through those vibrant colors.

Enjoying breakfast—a glass of orange juice and a ham sandwich.

Many girls look tired—I was tired. The idea of sleeping was quickly thrown out of the ring when we realized that our comfortable beds were left back home.

Enjoying the last moments on the plane, the smell of the Irish breeze awaits me. The sounds of Irish folks will no longer be just a thought. I will soon experience reality. God, thank you.
At the airport, we waited for Roberta, our advisor, and graduate of Saint Mary’s College. After greeting us, we hopped on the bus. It was becoming real.

I was not sure what I was expecting upon my arrival, but when I arrived at the University, I quickly became sad. I was emotional. I missed home. What was I doing here? I was tired. Am I really about to spend 9 months here? Many thoughts and emotions were creeping through the veins of my skin.

We got all moved in to our rooms. Our RA welcomed us with a nice greeting. We got our picture ids taken---right as we got off the bus. Thanks, I looked terrible—way to remember how tired and awful I looked.

We would soon meet for lunch, as a group. We were headed to a castle for lunch. I, along with the other girls were tired. I ordered pasta-it was good, but I was not in the mood to eat. I was trying to hold back the tears. Seriously, am I really here? I guess it was fair to say that I was experiencing a full swing of culture shock—much more than I expected—much more. My friend Bridget asked me if I was okay. She was there for me. I just did not know how to react to anything around me.

I met Rose’s roommate Evelien. She is seriously the most amazing person that I know.

Rose and I took a tour of campus. I was truly amazed by the beauty on South Campus. Old buildings, beautiful and vibrant colors, friendly people, and incredible scenery, were the thoughts running through my mind. I mean, it did not get any better than this. Simply amazing. I knew for certain that I would be getting my exercise in this year with all of the walking that I get to do this year.

North campus is where most class buildings are and where my apartment-dorm buildings tend to be. South Campus captures the old history. Both sides offer great aspects. The bridge serves its purpose of keeping both sides together.

That night, Annie, Catherine, Bridgy and I went out. We headed to the Roost, a local Pub in town. I tried my first Guinness. Yum. Bridgy’s reaction to the taste was not so pleasant. We hung out and chatted with people, and I introduced myself to two gentlemen. They were quite kind. I went back to campus that night thinking, “I miss home, but I think that if I live in the moment and truly just enjoy life, I will be okay.” I slept in Annie’s Room that night. I did not want to be alone and I knew that she would be there to support me. I needed somebody by my side.

September, Thursday 16th:

There were a lot of errands to do. We had orientation that morning. I was completely tired. Orientation went well though. It was straightforward, and easy to follow. In America, everything has to be so complicated. Here, the school seems to be relaxed and easy spirited. I liked that. I appreciated that.

Despite the dropping of our eyes, and the lack of sleep, Annie, Catherine, Cailin, Sarah, Bridget and I grabbed a bite to eat at the local Bagel Factory. Gosh, was it delicious. I had a Club bagel. It melted in my mouth. Annie had the same thing as I did. We both looked at each other with this refreshing joy in our faces. It was nice to sit down, be together and enjoy a good-tasteful meal.

I met Annie’s roommate and her friend—their names are still beyond my ability to try and say them.  Both of these girls are from Ireland, and I enjoyed getting to know them and their ordained goals in life.

I have liked seeing the different styles of girls. Each style represents a certain aspect of one’s culture.

Later that night we went to the Roost. I loved interacting with people. Annie, Catherine, Bridgy and I met up with Rose, Evelien and a few other girls. I was enjoying being there—talking and just relaxing. We met Keith and John that night—both exceedingly kind. I admired their accents.

We left the Roost and hit up club Mantra—a quite luxurious club, I’ll say. Walking into this club was a new experience for me. I met all sorts of people and encountered all sorts of things. I saw a bunch of familiar faces there, dancing and drinking (some more than others, to say the least).

I have to get used to the heavy drinking and smoking that takes place in Ireland. This is a part of their culture. This is what people do, and how they socialize. This has been my greatest challenge. I asked Rose if it was okay that I even surrounded myself near such environments. Back home I probably would never, but here, this is a big part of the life. The pubs in Ireland are more classy than pubs and bars in America. I have appreciated this, a lot!

I slept in Annie’s room again. I was not really moved into my room yet. I did a little unpacking, but was not hurrying to complete it. This would be tomorrow’s project.

September 17th, Friday:

We had orientation again—a tour of campus and a tour of library. Our mentor was quite kind and welcoming of us international students. The campus is much bigger than Saint Mary’s.

Right next to campus is a grade school called Saint Mary’s. (how funny—that name sounds familiar) I saw all of the kiddos playing outside. I had this happy thought and idea that maybe I could go over and help out with some type of program that they may offer the kids. Roberta knows my passion for youth, and so she was able to hook me up. Maybe I would feel even more at home, if I had the chance to work with kids during my stay here.


In hopes to take a nap, after a long day, my key was not working to get into my apartment. I did not know where to go to get a new one. During this “adventure” of trying to fix this problem, I met a Chaplain who was extremely friendly. Everyone here is friendly and the staff and professors are very helpful. Their kindness has really allowed me to feel at home.

The Chaplain and I walked around campus, in hopes that he could direct me to the appropriate spot. My residence office for River Apartments was closed, because of a rather unexpected flood. Plan B was on the rise. During our walk, I told him how passionate I was about my faith and service. He was thrilled that I had a heart for ministry and invited me to a few clubs on campus. I was excited to explore the potential experiences of interacting with other Christian’s and growing in my faith in a new culture. This is part of the journey, isn’t it?

I met my first roommate. She is from China and is the most adorable girl. She offered to cook me lunch. She made me some kind of Chinese noodle. I was grateful and happy that she was so welcoming and willing to invite me in so quickly.

At 4:00 pm, a few of us went to the Roost for “Linner” (late lunch, early dinner).  I had a chicken sandwich.  Roberta met us for a while.

At 6:30, we went to a meet and greet event for all of the international students. The president of the college gave a nice speech and his humor in the speech allowed the audience to chuckle. I met a guy by the name of Rory. He hung out with us that night.

Then again, we went out to the Roost. It was crowded. Everyone was there. I had so much and enjoyed my time there. I was having a discussion with like 10 people from all across the world. How amazing? There is nothing better than that.


September 18th, Saturday:

Today is my dads wedding. It is really hard for me not to be there. He understands though, and is proud of me—just as I am proud of him.

Today we start off our morning going to the Causey Farm. It is raining. When we arrive to the farm, some lovely Irish folks, who welcomed us in a friendly fashion, greet us.

Our agenda for the day consisted of milking a cow, learn the game of hurling, baking bread, having scones for breakfast, and eating a very nice meal.

We started our day with some Irish dancing, which was fun to learn. Later in the day, we learned how to play some Irish drums. Fun stuff. I really felt as if I was a part of this culture. The whole farm aspect in general, made me appreciate this culture. The quietness of this life actually made me jealous. Was I yearning for this type of life? In order to really step away from the world, is this the kind of life that I may need? Living on a farm offers a special vision of life—where I think the face of God is seen in new ways.

The farm amazed me. We saw lambs, pigs, baby pigs, dogs, and puppies. You name it, we saw it. I am not typically an animal lover, but after this trip, I am.

I was partners with Bridget when we made bread. When I went to crack the egg to put it in the bowl, I accidentally missed the bowl. No comment. Just imagine the laughter.

For lunch we had soup with our bread that we made. The soup was so fresh.  I met two little girls---the most adorable kids that I have seen in my life.

The day was filled with so much love and bondage. I felt like that our group got closer.

The highlight of the day on the farm was talking with the woman who showed us around and spent the day with us. I was sharing my various thoughts on the peace and happiness that I felt because of this slow pace of life. The farm life, in the country is a completely slow life. The woman told me, “We do not worry about time. We just enjoy the moment.” Her words captured my attention. I felt the presence and grace of God’s love throughout this day. The Irish people that I met were entirely friendly and happy. They lived a life that was really unknown to me. They loved each other, loved nature and loved the feeling of community.

That night, Annie, Rose, and I went out to celebrate for my dad’s wedding. We eventually ran into a lot of familiar faces. We started off at the Roost and then went to Brady’s, another local pub in town. I had fun dancing to the music, and enjoying people that were around me. Evelien (Rose’s roommate) and John (a friend), met us later in the evening.

One thing that I have noticed when being in Ireland, is that the people here are very nice. It is amazing to me. The people around me are good people, with big and glorious hearts. I have started to find myself  “learning” their accents. 

September 19th, Sunday:

The alarm clock rang. Annie and I woke up, and got ready for the day trips that were planned today. We were both tired.

This day would be something that I would remember for my whole life.

We first went to the Botanic Garden. Talk about God’s beauty and His amazing creations!! The garden was BEAUTIFUL! The colors, the trees, the water, the flowers, the everything, brought a warmth and fire of love in my heart. My goodness, I thought that I was seeing a glimpse of heaven. I never thought I would experience with my own eyes, scenery that was so beautiful. I thanked God in that moment because I needed this. I needed to see His works. I needed a silent peace. I was still feeling a little homesick.

Basically I was just fascinated.

We had lunch in the café. I ordered chicken, but ended up eating most of Rose’s burger. It was delicious.

Our next stop was Casino, Marino in Dublin. Our drive through in Dublin was great. Seeing the city was a nice treat, because I have only heard great things about it. To see it with my eyes was great. I quickly pulled out my camera. Needed to capture the moment.

The Casino was designed by Sir William Chambers as a pleasure house for James Caulfeild, 1st Earl of Charlemont. It is one of the finest 18th Century neoclassical buildings in Europe. The Casino, meaning “small house”, surprisingly contains 16 finely decorated rooms, endlessly rich in subtlety and design. It is a remarkable building—both in terms of structure and history.

Our last stop of the day, was to the National Museum of Ireland.  The building first known as Dublin Barracks later known, as Collins Barracks is a building steeped in history. The building, which is of the early Neo-Classical style, was designed by the architect, Col. Thomas Burgh. Other buildings built by Burgh include the Library at Trinity College, Dublin and Dr. Steven’s Hospital across the River Liffey from the Barracks.

Collin Barracks is surrounded by history. For example Wolfe Tone, one of the main leaders of the 1798 Rebellion was held prisoner here and later died at this site. The Croppies Acre in front of the Museum was the burial place of many of the prisoners executed in 1798. Today it is a commemorative park dedicated to those who died in the Rebellion. Situated at the back of the building is Arbour Hill Cemetery where the executed leaders of the 1916 are buried.

Later that night, Catherine, Rose, Annie and I went to mass about 3 minutes away from campus. The mass was very different than in America. There was no music, and the structure was slightly different. Kind of disappointing, but yet again, this part of the culture shock and difference. The concept was the same, so that is what I had to focus on. I prayed for strength and peace in my heart. I especially prayed for the challenges that I have recently faced. God is testing me in many areas of my life during this journey. He is challenging me to become a person who will truly love at all times. He is challenging me to become a person who will not worry but rather who will smile at every moment. He is challenging me to leave the busyness of my life, the people that I know and love dearly, to fully grow into His ultimate masterpiece. These challenges do not come easy. I pray that God grants me with the desire to be the best person that I can be all of the time. If I can be a witness to others on this journey in Ireland, I am hopeful that my time here will be that much more beautiful.

Catherine, Annie, Rose and I had dinner in Annie’s apartment. We had tortenlli. It was simple, cheap yet great meal. I met Annie’s roommate Christina, the sweetest girl in the entire world. She is beautiful inside and out. Her kindness and love for life only tells a small story of who she is. I honestly loved talking to her. I loved listening to what she had to say.

Christina and I were talking about the education system in both Ireland and America. The way that their education is done here is completely different than what I know as being familiar. It is impressive and mind capturing to learn about education focus from a girl my age, who lives in a different country than myself.

Annie slept in my room. Her and I finally got to sleep in (until 11:30). Yes!! Sleep has been well needed on this trip. With all of the walking that our little bodies do, sleep is a favored activity among the crowd. I’ll say anyway. 

September 20th, Monday:

Classes started today. I am officially registered.

A bunch of us Saint Mary’s girls are in the same classes. This is a good thing.

Seriously, the classes here remind me of being in 5th grade again. The professors are so laid back. In Ireland, classes are called modules. I am taking an Introduction to Anthropology, Ireland Since the 1800’s, an Introduction to Philosophy, The Irish Sociological Imagination, and Women in early Medieval Ireland.

Today I had my history class—Ireland since the 1800’s. The professor was super nice and friendly. Our assignment for the whole semester is to write a paper.

I appreciate the laid back feeling—and believe that this learning experience will teach me a lot about myself, my goals and education structure in a different country. I feel that I will fully enjoy my studies when I am here because I will not be focused so much on the grades, but more on the experience and understanding of what I am learning. The need for perfection will no longer be. I am here to understand, to let go and to say to myself, “Enjoy it.” Being in class with students from across the world brings this glimpse of magic to the classroom. The heart of life is captured in these times. I am looking forward to this semester, for many reasons. Mostly though, to really become fully educated in all aspects of life.

Tonight, Rose cooked Annie, Evelien and her two boy roommate’s dinner. She made pasta with chicken and veggie’s. This was a great bonding experience. The meal was yummy. It was nice to have a meal together. I felt like I was home. It was nice to sit around and talk, as the breeze came through the cracked window.

Annie is spending the night in my room tonight. We have an early class tomorrow morning.

It was pretty sunny outside today. I enjoyed the nice and calming weather.
I do not know what tomorrow holds, but I do not need to be concerned about that. I am enjoying my time now.

It is not about the destination but about the journey. Amen to that!

Yes, it is still a little hard for me to be here—why wouldn’t it? But I am also having a lot of fun. I am learning a lot. I praise God for providing me with strength and grace. I know that my friends and family back home, are supporting me and praying for me. If I hold on to what is important to me, I am confident that my journey will be guided in the utmost beautiful way. I am thankful for this journey—for this opportunity to see the fullness of life. 

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


Being there

Being there can be lending a hand, lighting a heavy load.
Being there can be a smile on a cloudy day.
Being there can be a crust of bread to the poor, giving shelter from the storm.
Being there can be a thought, a blessing, a prayer.
Being there can be showing support, and enthusiasm.
Being there can be listening quietly while someone else has something important they’d like you to hear.
Being there can be a friendly hug, or a warm embrace.
Being there can be expressions, penned on a page.
Being there can be offering your time.
Being there can be sharing the depth of a powerful silence.
Being there can be just holding hands.
Being there can be waiting out the tough times.
Being there can be touching God through the heart, and letting His will be done.