October 10, Sunday

Sunday’s seem to be my reading days. I read for a good chunk of the day—taking frequent “breaks.”

My friend is still having a challenging time. I was with her in the early afternoon.

Tonight, I went to mass at six.

After mass, Caitlin made dinner. She made chicken tacos. They were delicious. What food have I not enjoyed on this trip so far?

I went to Meghan’s room to talk for a while. She understands me. She knows my heart and my desires, because her and I experienced a lot together last year—Student Government, Five Star, and we were neighbors.

I stopped by in Megan Lynch’s room after to talk to her for a while. She gave me good words of wisdom last night, as well.

You really begin to appreciate people, once you realize that they are right by your side. Friends support each other in different ways. I am thankful for each and every one of my friends, who teach me something about life---that something sparks a new desire and way of thinking in my life.

Tonight I go to bed, with a newfound focus. When the complexities of the world seem to be getting at me, I just have to remember, that I cannot worry. I have to live in the moment, cherish the second, strive to become closer to God and be the best person that I can be. I go to bed with a smile, and with a relief, knowing that I will always be okay, as long as I hold on to trust. I always will, know matter how many snowballs come my way. Not one, will hit me too hard.

October 11, Monday

You can call today a busy one.

Meghan and I started our day working out at 8 in the morning. The gym was occupied by all men, and then us.

We worked out pretty hard.

We both got ready and then met at 10 to take our laundry into town. The laundry lady was sweet and happy. I love meeting good people.

I then had my tutorial—there is nothing better than anthropology.

We got our papers back, and I did pretty well. I am a writer, so I always slam myself for any mistakes that I make.

I went to the bank and then to Dunne’s for some food shopping. I got all healthy food.

We had history class from 3-5---boring. Honestly, I do not understand what this professor is saying. I feel very un-focused, no matter how hard I try.

Megan and I sent texts back and forth, about old times in Queen’s Court. These texts brought many laughs.

I then went to Meghan’s room and we hung out before Roberta’s class.

Tonight, me, Meghan and Kara auditioned for a play. I actually really enjoyed getting back into the realm of theater. Acting is something that I greatly enjoy.

Taylor and I watched a movie tonight. She is starting to feel better, which I am thankful for.

Today, despite going from one place to another, God showed me strength. Through the many people who I encountered today, I learned something about myself. I learned that no matter how busy life may seem, there is always the opportunity to look within, and reflect on the real reason why I get to live this amazing life. When I am able to see this, my focus and attitude are re-directed. My ability to enjoy the every moments of life are that much more pleasant.

Today was a good day. I am able to use my gifts and talents in new ways—in ways that I never knew existed before. I guess they say that this is part of the journey---digging a little deeper and finding that treasure.

October 12, Tuesday

I woke up and did some reading for classes. In addition, I organized my room, and put my fresh laundry away. Gosh does it feel nice to have clean clothes.

My Sociology class was great. We learned about binge drinking and how this has affected our youth culture. Topics like this interest me a great deal.

After class, Annie, Catherine and I, went to Kara’s room to chat for a while. We then headed to our 5:00 English class—could barely understand the lecturer.

After class, I ran into Meghan, Megan, Caroline and Taylor. I went back with Caroline and Meghan for some tea. Then the three of us headed to Dunne’s to buy dinner.

I had hummus and crackers—yum, as my dad would say…not. Meghan ate pasta and garlic bread, and Caroline ate salad, hummus as well as garlic bread. It was nice to eat together.

I then came back to my room, after visiting with the four girls for a while. I did some course planning for next semester, when I get back to Saint Mary’s.

The change in weather is ringing the bell of the winter months ahead. It was a bit chilly this evening. I walked back from Dunne’s in a short sleeve dress shirt—a jacket would have made the walk more comfortable for sure.

On the walk to Dunne’s, I experienced God’s perfect peace. I had this calm sensation inside the depths of my soul. I was happy. I was thankful to be living and studying in a beautiful country.

The sunset began to disappear upon the midst of the clouds. The sky faded more and more with every step that I took.

Cars and trucks passed by, as friendly people waved.

Maynooth is lively, filled with energy and a sense of community.

Today, I strive to focus on the important blessings in my life. Today, I strive to be a witness for all of those that I come into contact with. Today, I hold on to the enduring passion of my faith. Despite any downfall, I will be okay. I am exploring things about myself that I have never before. I am becoming the best version of myself, because for once in my life, I see the hidden vessels between the layers of my skin. The foundation of my existence is flourishing. I am being tested, with many challenges on this journey—isn’t this expected though? I believe so.

October 13, Wednesday

I believe that every girl on this journey was hand picked to explore the depths of Ireland.  This journey has done more than I could ever imagine. God knows exactly what He is doing! That’s our awesome God, for you!

America has to be so complicated. I remember the days, especially during the summer, when I would take out my ballpoint pen and mark my calendar to its fullest capacity. Did I ever take a break? Did I ever just stop? Rarely.

This is why I love Ireland so much. Ireland is a place where I have had the chance to live it up—to have the time of my life. Why not have the time of your life, when you have the chance to?

Each of my friends here, and back home teach me something about life. Each own, individually brings something special. Friends really can help shape you.

Today I made some runs into town. I made my first ATM withdrawal….WOW, about time.

Meghan and I went to sing in the evening. I think that it is safe to say that we were both not really into the singing spirit when we got there. It was still nice though!

We all went out tonight. We went to Brady’s. I had a wonderful time dancing and drinking a nice glass of Bulmer’s Cider.

One our walk home, we stopped at SuperMac’s. The name itself, says a lot. I had a Chicken Sandwich. Meghan ate the fries and we shared the drink.

Tonight was just an amazing time. There was not one moment, where I was not smiling. I love being in Ireland. I love being around my friends. I love the free spirit of the place.

My two roommates and I have bonded this week. Max, is an amazing gentleman. He has this great sense of passion.

Dear God, as I reflect on my time here, you are speaking to me and are filling my heart with new experiences. These experiences are allowing me to see life in its master form.

What does living in the moment mean? So many people cannot even imagine doing this. I never thought that I could. I now am proud to say that I can.

October 14, Thursday

I have always loved kids. I work with youth all of the time—they are my life. I think that it takes someone special to be with kids—someone who has a passion, desire and vision to see kids grow in their most abundant form.

Kids offer that spark of life, that innocence.

This morning, Meghan and I had the opportunity to go to Roberta’s school to hang out with some lovely three year olds for a few hours.

I have a whole new respect for Roberta. (Roberta is our advisor here in Ireland, and a graduate of Saint Mary’s College) She started this school, because she had this vision to help kids. Her school focuses on abstract learning. I was honestly more than impressed with the way that she was teaching. I have this whole new appreciation for education. Roberta is a witness of what can become possible. She knew that there needed to be a change with the schools here. She had this utmost vision to create a school that would truly impact the lives of kids.

I helped the kids with learning their numbers—especially the number 5. I was impressed with these kids intelligence. Kids have more intelligence than people think. We need to let kids use their gifts and talents!!!

Rosie, Amiee, and Erin were three girls who seriously jumped on top of me the whole time. During story time, they were playing with my hair. They all wanted to sit next to me. They just melted my heart in so many ways.

Kids bring that innocent presence.

Roberta showed us around HER school—this amazing school that SHE founded.

We took the kids outside to play.

Saying goodbye to these kids, was like saying goodbye to a piece of my heart. I felt more at home when I was with these kids. It was neat to witness their individual gifts and talents. Their vibrant minds and resourceful eyes, will only continue to bring about many great gifts for their futures.

Meghan, Megan, Taylor, Caitlin, Caroline and I went to the Bagel Factory for lunch. Talk about greatness and calories. I had the turkey club melt. There is not much more to say—I was very content.

Tonight I went to the Saint Vincent De Paul meeting. I signed up to volunteer at the nursing home. This club focuses on social justice, service and community. Right up my alley, I’ll say!

Tonight we all went to the Roost---Thursday’s is Roost night—in the secret room.

As always, I had a fun time dancing and being with my friends. I know what it is like to have the time of my life.

Meghan and I walked back. I checked a few emails and am off to bed.

I think that one of my greatest challenges on this journey has been being away from kids. The opportunity that I had today, was a blessing.

As I listened to the kids singing along to the songs in the background, goose bumps appeared on my arms.

As I heard these 3 year olds talking to each other, a great desire of warmth entered my heart.

As I saw them playing outside, and interacting with one another, I thought—a hopeful future and a proud moment.

In life, we are always being taught. We learn every day. Our best learning often does not come from the textbooks, but rather from the heart of experience, from listening and from understanding. Why not jump into a world of incredible experiences? What are you waiting for?

October 15, Friday

Part of studying abroad, is learning how to become a little more independent. When abroad, I have come to appreciate how lucky I am for my dads great support. Our parents really do, do a lot for us and I think that we do not appreciate this until we are out on our own. Our parents and guardians shape us in a certain way and prepare us for life’s greatest challenges.

I have enjoyed doing everything on my own—cleaning, laundry, cooking and all of the basic activities. My dad has always taught me responsibility and I have been fairly independent for a few years now, but Ireland has taught me something more.

Meghan and I walked to Dunne’s to buy last minute items for our five hour bus ride. We are headed to Killarney for the weekend. This is our last group trip—a bittersweet moment for sure.

Roberta told Meghan and I that our group is the most bonded group that she has ever worked with—this says a lot. It is true though, that our group gets a long and we all have a great time.

Since we were boarding the bus at 4, Meghan thought that it would be smart to cook a bigger lunch. At Dunnes, we bought a natural smoothie drink, chicken, veggies, bread, and potatoes. We were in for a real treat—a lunch that could potentially win the contest for best-cooked meal. 

Along with our lunch purchases, I also bought water, and Meghan bought some fruit and freshly-baked bread.

We came back to my apartment and cooked our lunch. Can I just say yum, yum, yum?

We used our chicken to make chicken sandwiches. They were AMAZING! My goodness. We are excellent cooks.

After lunch we had about two hours, so I stayed in my room and packed.

Our bus ride was fun, but long. Five hours in a bus can cause tired eyes and carsickness, but we all had a great time.

We stopped at SuperMacs—yes, again. I had the chicken breast meal. It was delicious.

We finally arrived to our fancy hotel, called Earls Court House. Everything is very unique and homey. Bridgy, Sarah, little Rose and I are sharing a master suite. Bridy and I are sharing a canopy bed.

We all hung out in Meghan’s room for a while. We watched America’s got Talent. Then, I came back and my four “roommates” and I had a wonderful talk.

Off to bed. We have to get up in six hours—are you kidding?

In the distance, I saw animals roaming through the fields, as I sat in the bus with my knees folded.

I heard laughter in the background.

I love road trips, and I love traveling. More importantly, I love being with my friends.

It has always been a great prayer of mine for God to use His mighty forces and will to lead my life. It is fair to say that God has done more than I could ever imagine on this journey. When I smile, I am smiling at the shiny sun and at my friends who bring a spark of joy in my life. When I cry, I am weeping tears of joy, for this opportunity to explore something that is beyond magical. When I laugh, I am thinking about all of the fun times on this journey. It all comes down to appreciating the experiences that we have in life—from the most simple to the biggest. The world is waiting for us at the tip of our fingers. Why not grasp what is out there, when you have the chance?

October 16, Saturday

The alarm goes off, and I am determined to get out of bed. Just thirty more minutes, please! I skipped the opportunity to take a warm shower.

A cold breakfast was served down in the dining room. I had cheese, bread and fruit. A typical breakfast to start off my morning is always a nice feeling and my stomach sure appreciates it.

Today we spent a lot of time in the bus, touring and driving up the mountains. We went to see the Ring of Kerry. We stopped frequently to take pictures of the stunning scenery. I thought that so far on this journey, I have seen amazing beauty (which I have), but NOTHING compares to what I saw today.

We were able to stop at beaches and stand along the shore of the water. I kept asking myself, “Am I alive right now? Or am I actually in heaven?” What I saw with my eyes, was surreal. From the water, to the mountains, God was a live in the heart of this creation. His face was outlined in the speck of the clouds, and in the mountains. His grace was manifested by the peace that I felt. I sat in the bus and smiled because I knew that God was this amazing God, who has brought a whole new appreciation to my life. It is all about appreciating things in life.

We stopped at the Derrynane House (National Historic Park). The Derrynane House is the ancestral home of Daniel O’Connell, lawyer, politician, and statesman. Situated on 120 hectares of parklands on the scenic Kerry coast, the house displays many relics of O’Connell’s life and career. Extensive gardens have been developed adjacent to the house with many tender plants, including a fine collection of South American Plants.

History is important in our lives, because it has shaped us and has formed our many desires. Our ancestors are history. The air that we breathe is history. The things that have been accomplished and the people that have left a mark, are history. When I learned about O’Connell’s life, I was amazed. Furthermore, the fact that I had the chance to tour his house, and to be walking on the ground of remarkable territory, I felt honored. I felt like I was going back in time, present during his life, and soaking up his ambition passion and calling.

We stopped at a pub for lunch. It was delicious, as all food seems to be here. I am not sure if I have had a let-down with food yet. I had a chicken burger. YUM!

Later, thirteen of us went to mass, at a local Cathedral in town. Something great happened. Roberta asked us, “Who would like to go to mass?” I was sleeping and a lot of people on the bus said aloud, “Moni does! Moni, you wan to go to mass right?”

I thought that this was neat, because it goes to show what God can do through others, when you be that voice. I woke up and said, “Yes, of course I do. Is anyone coming? I would never miss mass.”

I encouraged Taylor and Caroline to come, but kindly reminded them not to feel like they have to, because after all, it is their choice. Then, something great happened—slowly, more and more people got up from their seat and joined me. Thirteen girls ended up going to church, in this beautiful church. The buildings were tall and it was just beautiful inside. So, despite all of the hesitant vibe in the bus, as to whether going to church sounded “like a nice thing” for many of the girls, it ended up being a great experience.

Going to mass with these girls was wonderful. For the first time in my friendship with Caroline and Taylor, we went to mass together. Being centered in the Lord’s presence, is the greatest thing for a friendship.

After mass, Caroline and I lit a candle.

Later, we went to dinner at Kayne’s, a restaurant close to our hotel. It was a great dinner. I enjoyed the many discussions, and time shared with those who I love. I had pork, which melted in my mouth. A nice selection of ice-cream was my desired choice for dessert.

Tonight, most of us went out to a local pub in town. Kara, Irish Danced in front of a medium sized audience. It was fun to watch her dance and for her to be willing to use her gifts and talents for a wider audience.

Dear God, today I saw you in some of the most profound ways. I cannot even begin to explain the beauty that I saw. No words, no pictures but only memory can describe your amazing beauty. I have never seen anything so beautiful. I am in love with you, and with this beautiful world that you have created. I see that in certain parts of the world, there is disaster, war, hatred, and violence. Lord Jesus, today, as I sat in the bus and looked out at your world, I saw the possibility for humanity to appreciate a clean, humble and pure world. Thank you for this day and for allowing me to experience what I did. Peace, sincerity, joy, love, astonishment, and amazement all entered my heart today. I can never thank you enjoy.

Today, as I saw deer crossing the road, lamb up in the mountains, a man walking on the side of the road, babies in their strollers, I thought, ‘Wow, it really is a wonderful life.”

October 17, Saturday

Our day started out early. I got up to the sound of my alarm clock, and jumped in the soothing shower. The hot water felt great. Another blessing that many people take for granted is hot water.

Sarah, little Rose, Bridgy and I were the first bunch down for breakfast. I had cheese and two scones. I went back upstairs and took a fast nap before we boarded the bus at 9:15.

Our stop was at the Muckross house. The house was just lovely. Kara, Taylor, Megan and I went for a carriage ride around the 26,000 acres. The scenery was beautiful—as I was expecting. The carriage ride was nice because we were able to see a good chunk in a short amount of time. Our horse’s name was Bailey.

We nearly begged the carriage rider to let us ride for a reduced rate. It must be the American Spirit in us, because it worked. He was able to cut us a good deal.

We stopped at the waterfall. Is this real life? The path to the waterfall was like a rain forest. The different shades of greens were evidently transparent before my eyes. I had never seen anything like it before. Wow, God speaks powerfully through nature. He is in nature. His presence is alive. His working hands and healing heart was seen my the light breeze and flowing water.

How do I describe the breathe-taking moment that I experienced at the waterfall? I can’t.

A kind gentleman took a picture of the four of us.

Nature is so awesome! When you explore nature, you explore a certain piece inside your soul. When you explore nature, and touch it with the palm of your hand, you are touching God’s artwork. God is the artist and we are audience. He wants us to cherish the little glimpses of nature that make us fully real. Nature should inspire us in our self-discovery journey. I have found God in a whole new way, while being here in Ireland, because I have never seen Him so alive in nature. Many think that God is only up there watching over us. Wrong! He is right in front of us. He is in the sunshine, the wind, in the heart of human beings, through the reflection of the water, in the breeze from the trees, and in the art of His great design. God designs us in greatness. We much appreciate the greatness that is right before our eyes. When we do, we find Him. We merely touch Him. How do we know that He is there? It is the peace, the calmness, the happiness and the reality of life, that confirms that He is right there.

On the carriage ride, I saw many children walk, ride, or be carried past us. Little kids of all ages were happy, smiley, waved at us and were filled with joy. The kids reminded me of God’s chosen angels on this earth. Like I said before, kids teach us many things about life. Their imaginations and appreciation for life, and for nature, invite us to hold this same type of desire.

God is a live. He is present. He is in the now. God has invited me to explore a journey in witnessing His greatest designs. My whole outlook on life in changed forever.

The peace I felt, and still feel is a peace that I cannot describe. It is a peace of renewal for my life. It is a peace of knowing that a world of fame, material pursuit, war, hatred, violence and ignorance, is NOT the only world possible.

This whole trip was wonderful. Aspects of myself and who I am called to become, were shown throughout this weekend. I asked God for a favor and He heard me. He did the favor. I have said many times that God has done amazing things on this journey. Praise Him!

We had lunch at the Garden restaurant. It was great. I had chicken, rice, potatoes and veggies. I had yogurt for dessert. My meal melted in my mouth. My friends were obviously hungry as they consumed their food within ten minutes. A lot of us got the same thing. I have been thankful for all of these meals on our group trips.

We boarded the bus. Roberta asked if anyone needed to run to the bathroom just one more time (since it was really close to the bus). A good number of eyes looked at me (my kidney’s work well when I drink a lot of water), and I ran to the bathroom one more thing. I am not sure what it is—whenever I drink water, no matter how much, I have to se the bathroom bad.

The bus ride was grand. We watched two movies—Enchanted, and Harry Potter. We stopped at a gas station for a much needed bathroom break. A lot of got sandwiches to eat back on the bus. They were only 2.50 Euro. What a great deal!

Tonight, my roommate Ciara, her friend and I had a nice dinner. We also had many great conversations. We were talking about the language system and how even though we all speak English, there are still different meanings and word usage. I think that this is awesome. We were talking about the different cultures (between Ireland and America). Ciara’s friend said to me, “It is great how you are embracing our country.” She is from Ireland but said that she often does not appreciate her country. She also has not been to a lot of cities outside her own.

Traveling around Ireland has made me appreciate my country in a whole new way. I often take for granted the beauty that is around me at all times. No matter what, God’s artwork will never fade. God’s beauty is around us each and every single day—we just have to appreciate it. We have to take the time to appreciate it, and see God through the smallest vessels of nature. I really believe that God’s love unveils significantly through the discernment of nature.

It was nice to have dinner with these two girls. I love learning about people. Of course, we all have our own interpretations for what a county should and is like. However, when you actually experience it for yourself, and talk to people who live in it, you begin to re-focus your lens. Stepping out of your comfort zone to reach beyond the limit, is one of the key educating tools for life.

In many ways, this journey has changed my life. Finding God in a whole new way, taking time to appreciate the moment, finding a peace and happiness in my heart like never before, being with some of my great friends, allowing my mind to be transformed in God’s will, enjoying the food that I eat, and trusting even more in God, than ever before, are all the backbones of this exciting time in my life.

Dear Lord, please guide my focus, so that I can be the best person that I can be. Bless the rest of my time here, that I continue to strive in your holiness. Amen.